Why is it so difficult?

So difficult to get someone to listen? For 14 weeks I have been backwards and forward to the doctors I can’t even tell you how many times! Fraser is 16 weeks old today!

At 2 weeks old we went initially… must be reflux, try Gaviscon. Worked for 3 days then the copious amounts of vomit appeared again. Went back… could be an intolerance…. try this Cows Milk Free formula…. didn’t make a difference. Go back again…. try gaviscon… worked for 3 days and caused major constipation. In all this time too along side the vomiting after almost every feed, Fraser was screaming for hours on end most afternoons/ evenings. So distressing for everyone. Nothing I do comforts him.

Go back again to an out of hours appointment at the hospital. Doctor wasn’t listening, he was referring to Fraser as a SHE and asked me about 4 times if Gaviscon was working. If Gaviscon was working I wouldn’t be sat there! Idiot! He gave me a prescription for Ranitidine, didn’t explain properly how to use it and told me the hospital pharmacy would explain when they dispense it. Took it to the hospital pharmacy and they told me they couldn’t dispense it as it was a green prescription and not a white one. By this point I was more than a little bit cross and was pulling my hair out.

 

Spoke to a GP at my surgery again on the phone a few days after that who was fairly helpful, wrote a new prescription for Ranitidine and explained how to use it. So I picked up the prescription took it to my chemist and they dispensed it but told me that they didn’t have any 1ml syringes which I would need to administer the meds to Fraser! He told me I will have to go round other chemists to see if they had any and he didn’t know when they were getting anymore in stock! Luckily my Mum got one from her local pharmacy! Bloody useless!

 

Ranitidine wasn’t making an ounce of difference. A couple of conversations with friends on Facebook and they mentioned Tongue Tie…. hmmmm my other 2 didn’t have this, I didn’t know what to look for…surely a professional would have picked this up!? I took a picture of under his top lip and it was impossible to get an under the tongue one so videoed 10 seconds in his mouth when he was crying. One of my friends said she had diagnosed plenty of lip and tongue tie in her career and was very sure Fraser had both! A few others who saw commented saying that their babies had this and Frasers looked very similar.

So we booked in to see another GP at my surgery. I explained everything AGAIN from the beginning, about all the meds not working, about the possibility of Lip and Tongue Tie and she looked under his tongue and said oh it can’t be that, he has good tongue movement. Then went to take her gloves off, I said “can you look at his lip too please” She looked and just said hmmm I don’t know. I just burst into tears at this point. So bloody frustrated. I said about feeling like no-one is taking me seriously and I feel like I keep being fobbed off with meds, different milks, Ive tried comfort milk too and that made no difference. I think she was a bit taken aback by my tears. She felt his tummy. She said all seems ok but will refer us to the paediatricians as something can’t be right with all the vomiting and screaming. So she has referred for “Tummy Issues” … nothing to do with lip or tongue tie!!

 

Now we have also noticed that Fraser is losing weight. This is worrying. So I took him to see the Health Visitor as I had done the last couple of weigh ins at home. On the 19th June he was last weighed “properly” and he weighed 16lb 6oz. and then yesterday on 17th August he weighed 17b 1oz. I had weighed him in at 18lb in between that time but how accurate my scales are I don’t know. But regardless of my recordings, 11oz gain in 2 months is not right. Babies should be gaining 1-2 lbs a month.Fraser hasn’t gained 1lb in 2 months. Health visitor advised to come back next week to weigh in again on her scales and we will see from there. She also checked his tongue and lip and is sending us for an assessment for that. FINALLY!! Thank you!! How bloody hard was that?

 

So I will keep you posted on any updates but I have such a headache from it all, I am so stressed out. Things can only get better right?

 

 

The Parenting Struggle is Real!

Today…. it really is! Today I cannot win at parenting. I feel like its all out of my control. That makes me feel shit.

I really am not one for making out my life is perfect. It is far from being doused in the smell of roses!! I generally am a happy person, very laid back and quite care free. But today I do care, today I am not feeling laid back…. today feels like a huge pus filled zit on the arse of parenting!

 

My poor baby boy is very unsettled indeed with his colic and reflux issues and no amount of Mummy love or cuddles is settling or comforting him. All I want to do is help him and take his pain away but today is not letting that happen. I long for the day that he grows out of this. It is not an inconvenience at all…. I just want him to not suffer. I just want to not witness him bright red in the face screaming the house down and not being able to help him. I hate it! I hate Colic and Reflux!

 

My older 2 kids seem to have found a whole load of hate for each other. They have always been so close! It breaks my heart. It is such petty crap they argue over too. They literally cannot be in the same room as each other for longer than 2 minutes before all hell breaks loose! I hate it!! What has happened to their relationship?! I cannot win at that either. I do not take sides, I tell them both they are as bad as each other which they are and I get accused of taking sides. I get accused of like the other more than them. I am wrong because I’m not backing either of them. If they had valid arguments then I would but “Mum…. he/she breathed in my direction” is not valid. It’s ridiculous. I am sick of listening to it and I just want them to get along. Having to tell 2 of my children that if they can’t stand each other then don’t communicate or go near each other is AWFUL. Its awful because I have seen these two be so close, have so much fun, laugh together. Where did it all go so wrong? It’s daily! I hate it!!

 

So today is pants quite frankly! I feel like a rubbish mother because I can’t control these crappy things that are going on! How do I make things better? How do I get them to like each other again?

 

Bring on tomorrow!! Tomorrow is a new day!

 

 

The First 3 Months

My word…. it goes so quickly doesn’t it!!? These first 3 months have flown by!

Fraser hasn’t had the easiest of starts but has still been an absolute dream. He was sleeping 4-5 hours a night from a week old. I, as most parents really love my sleep so have cherished this enormously! We have really been blessed in that respect as our older two children were also very good with their sleep!

 

Now this time around I’ve come across and am struggling with a couple of things I’ve not experienced before!! Reflux and Colic!! Wow! Like babies don’t create enough extra washing without throwing up over 5 different outfits a day! Haha!

It started when Fraser was about 2 weeks old. The vomit!! The sheer amount of baby vomit! HE was pretty much throwing up after every feed! Time to see a doc! The doctor advised us that from the symptoms we had described, Fraser has reflux! Well this was a new one to us! He prescribed Infant Gaviscon which was to be put into every feed. We saw the effects almost immediately, which was great. This lasted 3 whole days then the vomit returned! Back to the docs we went. This time we were advised that it could be an intolerance to the formula so we were prescribed a cows milk free formula. Wow that stuff was gross! It had the consistency and smell of a very thick cheese sauce! *gag* ….. it made absolutely no difference whatsoever and we tried it for the 2 weeks that we were told to so we switched back to his original formula. After a little while the vomiting subsided by itself. We were so relieved. Well…. for a while, until the colic kicked in! Another new thing for us!

 

 

At about 4 weeks old, one particular evening Fraser was VERY upset. He had been fed and changed, I had tried to burp him, nothing. I tried my hardest to comfort him, trying all sorts of positions holding him, walking around with him, over my legs, on my shoulder, in the pram… nope nothing worked, he was screaming the place down like I had never heard before. That kind of scream where their little faces go bright red and you are willing them to take a breath. It was awful and I felt bloody useless. I called 111 for advice because I had tried everything and I just did not know what else to do. They asked me a series of questions and by this point Fraser had been screaming or almost 2 hours solid. They said they were sending an ambulance, because he was so little they didn’t want to take any risks. PANIC MODE!!! I am crap at situations like this and stated crying on the phone, that then made my daughter cry, she’s 14 and was a real rock to me that night. Hubby was at work. The paramedics turned up and checked him over and within 5 minutes of them being there he stopped crying! How typical is that!?? They still wanted him to go to hospital to get checked over. All his stats seemed ok so that was something. Mum in Law came over to sit with the older two and I went with Fraser in the ambulance. Got to children A&E and the nurses done all the checks again, asked me a few questions, weighed him…. they couldn’t find a thing wrong with him! I felt like such an idiot!! They kept reassuring me that I had done the right thing. Just glad he was ok!

We have had so much fun and laughter with this little boy! He’s generally a very happy chappy! His 1st smile made me melt and his 1st proper laugh (a real belly chuckle!) actually made me cry! He’s so funny!

 

We still have the colic and reflux issues but we are battling through, the docs don’t appear to be listening but I’ve made the choice to change his milk to a comfort milk. There does seem to be less vomit but it hasn’t cleared completely. Its good to know that colic and reflux are both things he will eventually grow out of.

 

 

Fraser is also suffering from a touch of Plagiocephaly – Flat Head Syndrome. Another new thing to us!! We are following advise to correct it and it is slowly improving. Resting his head to the opposite side that is affected, holding him more, lots of tummy time, he absolutely loves sitting up and seeing whats going on around him at the moment so we’ve bought him a Fisher Price sit-me-up which he likes to sit in but not for too long. Hopefully it will continue to improve and no further action will be needed. In his cot we also use a BabyMoov Cosy Dream, its like a padded cushion/mat that he sleeps on thats moulded around the head and that helps prevent flat head syndrome too.

 

This boy loves his milk! He is on 8oz bottles 4 times a day… generally 9am – 1pm – 5pm – then 9pm then bath and bed! He sleeps right through now… 10 hours a night!! Very very blessed! I think he will be great by the time is comes to weaning. I’m not sure he will last until the full 6 months and I do really want to hold it off for as long as I possibly can. His older brother was a milk and food lover and used to scream when either had finished as he was enjoying it so much! LOL! I can see Fraser being the same! He already is with his milk!

Unlike his older siblings he really loves his baths! He loves to kick about in the water and loves being washed with lots of bubbles! Baby friendly bubbles of course! The older two used to scream the place down at bath time so this is a refreshing change!

 

So Fraser was 3 months old on the 28th July. He is smiling, laughing, holding toys for a short amount of time, he has discovered his hands, he has almost fully rolled from his back onto his front just one arm got stuck underneath him, he hasn’t managed the other way though just yet. He is vocal and starting to “shout”  especially when excited! He loves to watch the colours on the TV, he adores music!!

Despite all the throwing up he is gaining weight well. As of today he weighs 18lbs exactly! He is going to be a bruiser!!

 

Fraser is going to be such a character I can tell! His 1st 3 months have been great even if a little bit stressful. I can’t wait to see what the next 3 bring!!

 

 

 

 

MyHummy – The Humming Bear Review

MyHummy is a God Send!! I’m sure that anyone who has one would agree!! A cute and cuddly teddy that actually sends your baby to sleep? Genius!

Now… as a rule Fraser is a pretty good sleeper but we are only human and have the odd wobbly bedtime, especially after injections and things like that. He has just started teething too so I’m sure there will be a few more wobbles coming up!

The MyHummy Snoozy is incredibly soft to the touch and super cuddly! Very very cute indeed! They come in 5 different colours. Our one is Slate Grey. The other choices are white, mint green, blue and pink.

Apparently babies love playing with ball-shaped objects and it would be perfectly safe for little ones to have a chomp on the paws. This can be washed at 40 degrees (obviously taking out the battery compartment first). The battery compartment is cleverly hidden behind an almost invisible zip at the top of Snoozys head. It takes 3 x AAA batteries.

This cute little bear can be attached to cot, car seat, pram etc and the sole purpose is to help baby to sleep by playing white noise. There are 5 different noises to choose from, which are: A hairdryer, vacuum cleaner, ocean waves, rainfall and amniotic fluid with heartbeat.

Ours lives in Frasers cot. We haven’t taken it out and about in pram or carseat as yet. Fraser loves him for bedtime.

There is a variable volume setting, plus its easy to switch off, you just press and hold for like 2 seconds and its off. It comes with an easy to follow instruction page. Such a great idea, such cute looking teddies, Fraser has no issues settling, even on a wobbly bedtime with his MyHummy Snoozy by his side! Wish they had these around when my older two were babies!

 

We love the MyHummy Snoozy! Thumbs up here!!

 

 

 

We were sent this item to review. All thoughts and opinions are honest and our own.

Bumbo Changing Pad Review

Bumbo got in touch with us to see if we wanted to do a review of their Changing Pad, obviously we were happy to oblige! These looked GREAT!

The Pad is comfortable and soft and it is contoured. The sides are raised too which helps when baby gets to that “I’m gonna roll over” stage! Another plus to help this stage is the strap to hold them in place which I think is a great idea! The strap is fully adjustable too!

The Changing Pad is also easy to clean which is always a bonus when it comes to Nappy changing time! Ha! The Joys of Boys…. I’ve been peed on many a time now! Compared to our normal plastic changing mat, when I laid Fraser down onto it, it wasn’t freezing cold. So he didn’t get grumpy!

He does love to wriggle about, does Fraser but I feel a lot more settled knowing he cannot go anywhere when on this pad! The higher sides and safety harness completely put my mind at ease. He isn’t quite at the rolling over stage just yet but we aren’t far off I’m sure!

 

This little boy hasn’t been a huge fan of Bum Change Time … (I’m not either particularly), but since we have been using the Bumbo Changing Pad it has been a tear free affair which is always a good thing!

 

 

I would say our thoughts on this product are a HUGE thumbs up!! Definitely recommended by us!

 

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The Birth of Our Son

So my due date was the 8th May. My pregnancy was pretty rough from the day I found out to be honest. I had pretty much everything thrown at me this time around. Heavy bleeds, nausea, sickness, SPD, bad back, swollen legs feet and ankles, extra amniotic fluid, gestational diabetes and I was also diagnosed with an underachieve thyroid whilst pregnant! It was pretty eventful to be honest with all the extra scans and consultant appointments. Very different to my 2 previous pregnancies! With it also having been 11 years since my last pregnancy my body was feeling it big time! You can see from the picture above how much extra fluid I was carrying! Once baby was born I was told I had at least 2 litres of fluid!!

Due to previous lung issues I was told I would have to have a c-section rather than natural. I was ok with that as I just wanted what was best for Baby and myself of course. I was given a date of the 5th May initially. Then that was moved forward to the 3rd of May because of their discovery of extra fluid and the Gestational Diabetes.

On 27th April I was getting really bad back pains. I’d never had back labour before. I had no idea what was happening. It got to the point where I had to stop what I was doing as the pains were really quite painful! I called the Maternity Triage for advice all along just thinking my back pains were due to the heavy load I was carrying! They wanted to just check me over so my sister took me in.

They done the usual checks and then done an internal examination! I was 2cm! Baby had decided it was time! I was told I had to stay in and my section would be happening the following morning! If things progressed overnight they would do an emergency one! WOW now I was scared!! I felt I was pregnant for an eternity and now the time had come. I let Hubby know what was happening and he text me to say he was scared. Awww I wanted to hug him so much.

He arrived the next morning once I’d given him the OK when the consultant had been round. My mum brought him up to the hospital with the children, they waited in the downstairs cafe with my Mum whilst we were in Theatre.

There he is in all his glory!! Scrubs!! He is 6ft 4 so I was shocked they found some long enough! Shortly after this pic was taken we went down to theatre. My previous 2 births were natural so this was all new to me! I was starting to get a bit nervous but also excited because our baby boy was coming soon!

All the lights and screens and instruments and machines in theatre were a little overwhelming when I first went in. The staff were AMAZING though, completely made me feel at ease. I sat on the bed in theatre hugged a pillow and leaned forward whilst they done the epidural. Ed reported back after that the size of the needle they used was impressive! Luckily needles don’t bother me!

Such an odd sensation when they are lifting your legs about and you are watching them but you can’t feel a thing!! Weirdest sensation EVER! The screen soon went up and the operation was underway!

What an absolutely amazing picture Ed took!! I will cherish this always!! He here is!! Fraser Jenson was born at 12.06pm on 28th April. He weighed a healthy 8lb 3oz. When i first saw his face I cried and said OMG he looks like Izzy (his big sister). I can’t believe how soon after they said they were starting the op, that they then lowered the screen and showed us him! Amazing!! Obviously its a much longer process to sew me back up after!

He was wrapped up and given to me straight away after the checks. Totally in awe of him!

 After a little while we were back on the ward and my Mum and the kids came to meet him!! They are all besotted with him. The kids adore their baby brother and it makes my heart swell every time I see them together. We are so very lucky.

We were home the following day!! So soon but theres nothing like recovering in your own home.

Our new family of FIVE!

Biggest Shock EVER

September the 15th….. enough was enough. I had been feeling awful for a good couple of weeks. It was time to give in, time to call the doctors!!

The horrific pains in my boobs actually had me in tears…. I couldn’t even take my bra off. I was sleeping constantly, actually couldn’t get enough sleep. I kept feeling like I had an upset tummy. I needed answers!!

Spoke to doc initially on the phone and he told me to come in and see him and bring a urine sample. I didn’t think anything of it…. I was on the pill and had been for 2 years. Never missed a single one. I just thought maybe he would check for a urine infection or something?

He told me when i arrived that he would get a pregnancy test out of the way. I didn’t even flinch at that as I knew I was covered by the pill…. just thought it was something they had to rule out.

He stood with his back to me, armed with a pipette full of my wee…. releasing drops onto a pregnancy test. Almost immediately he turned his head and asked again if I was on the pill, I responded Yes…. he then asked me which one so I answered him. He then asked if I had ever missed any? I replied with a very confident NO! The next words that came out of his mouth knocked me for six!!

“Ok, well you are very much Pregnant!!!”

 

OH EM GEE!!!! HOW??? WHAT THE…..??!! SHIT!

I burst into hysterics!!! Im not sure he knew what to do! Haha! My 3 most used words that day were OH MY GOD! I truly was in shock!! I couldn’t believe it!! My children are almost 14 and almost 11!!! I drove home from the docs through tears of utter shock! I wasn’t upset I was just totally dumbfounded!!

Ok… now I had to tell Hubby! He was asleep as he works nights… I had to wake him up! He sat up in bed when he heard my sobs! His lil screwed up sleepy face looked at me and I said “I’m Pregnant!!” he said “shit how did that happen??” Then he just sat staring into space for a lil while and laid back down and went back to sleep! (The next morning when he came in from work he bounced through the door talking about stocking up on nappies and some bottle making gadget he had seen online! )

I let Ed tell the kids the following morning. Izabel cried her eyes out she was SO happy!! Xavier is also incredibly excited!! He kisses my tummy every day. It was such a wonderful response from them.

Next lot of madness running through my head was “How far along am i??” I had no periods at all on the pill so I had no way of even roughly working out how far gone I was.

Over the next couple of days I popped into my docs surgery to fill out a pregnancy pack and asked if I could be sent for a dating scan. This was all arranged quite quickly. I had piled on a few pounds over the previous months and then starting worrying that maybe I was half way through already?!

So…. scan day arrives!!! By this point I had convinced myself I was at least 15 weeks+…. actually no… I was 6+3 HAHA! So very wrong! The tiny lil pip on the screen measured 7mm but we managed to see the heart beat! It was so amazing! It made it more real. The shock had worn off by this point. Hubby and I were very excited!

So I am now 10+2 and suffering terribly from nausea and sickness. I never had any of this with my other 2. Its awful. Ive lost almost a stone and a half so far so its dropping off me everywhere except for my tummy. I look much further along than I am.

I feel terrible, exhausted, sick, I can sleep for England! Its been so long since I was last pregnant but I just don’t remember ever feeling this awful before! Hopefully this phase will pass soon and I will be able to function again.

I know it will all be worth it in the end. This is going to be one VERY loved baby.