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Why is it so difficult?

So difficult to get someone to listen? For 14 weeks I have been backwards and forward to the doctors I can’t even tell you how many times! Fraser is 16 weeks old today!

At 2 weeks old we went initially… must be reflux, try Gaviscon. Worked for 3 days then the copious amounts of vomit appeared again. Went back… could be an intolerance…. try this Cows Milk Free formula…. didn’t make a difference. Go back again…. try gaviscon… worked for 3 days and caused major constipation. In all this time too along side the vomiting after almost every feed, Fraser was screaming for hours on end most afternoons/ evenings. So distressing for everyone. Nothing I do comforts him.

Go back again to an out of hours appointment at the hospital. Doctor wasn’t listening, he was referring to Fraser as a SHE and asked me about 4 times if Gaviscon was working. If Gaviscon was working I wouldn’t be sat there! Idiot! He gave me a prescription for Ranitidine, didn’t explain properly how to use it and told me the hospital pharmacy would explain when they dispense it. Took it to the hospital pharmacy and they told me they couldn’t dispense it as it was a green prescription and not a white one. By this point I was more than a little bit cross and was pulling my hair out.

 

Spoke to a GP at my surgery again on the phone a few days after that who was fairly helpful, wrote a new prescription for Ranitidine and explained how to use it. So I picked up the prescription took it to my chemist and they dispensed it but told me that they didn’t have any 1ml syringes which I would need to administer the meds to Fraser! He told me I will have to go round other chemists to see if they had any and he didn’t know when they were getting anymore in stock! Luckily my Mum got one from her local pharmacy! Bloody useless!

 

Ranitidine wasn’t making an ounce of difference. A couple of conversations with friends on Facebook and they mentioned Tongue Tie…. hmmmm my other 2 didn’t have this, I didn’t know what to look for…surely a professional would have picked this up!? I took a picture of under his top lip and it was impossible to get an under the tongue one so videoed 10 seconds in his mouth when he was crying. One of my friends said she had diagnosed plenty of lip and tongue tie in her career and was very sure Fraser had both! A few others who saw commented saying that their babies had this and Frasers looked very similar.

So we booked in to see another GP at my surgery. I explained everything AGAIN from the beginning, about all the meds not working, about the possibility of Lip and Tongue Tie and she looked under his tongue and said oh it can’t be that, he has good tongue movement. Then went to take her gloves off, I said “can you look at his lip too please” She looked and just said hmmm I don’t know. I just burst into tears at this point. So bloody frustrated. I said about feeling like no-one is taking me seriously and I feel like I keep being fobbed off with meds, different milks, Ive tried comfort milk too and that made no difference. I think she was a bit taken aback by my tears. She felt his tummy. She said all seems ok but will refer us to the paediatricians as something can’t be right with all the vomiting and screaming. So she has referred for “Tummy Issues” … nothing to do with lip or tongue tie!!

 

Now we have also noticed that Fraser is losing weight. This is worrying. So I took him to see the Health Visitor as I had done the last couple of weigh ins at home. On the 19th June he was last weighed “properly” and he weighed 16lb 6oz. and then yesterday on 17th August he weighed 17b 1oz. I had weighed him in at 18lb in between that time but how accurate my scales are I don’t know. But regardless of my recordings, 11oz gain in 2 months is not right. Babies should be gaining 1-2 lbs a month.Fraser hasn’t gained 1lb in 2 months. Health visitor advised to come back next week to weigh in again on her scales and we will see from there. She also checked his tongue and lip and is sending us for an assessment for that. FINALLY!! Thank you!! How bloody hard was that?

 

So I will keep you posted on any updates but I have such a headache from it all, I am so stressed out. Things can only get better right?

 

 

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The Parenting Struggle is Real!

Today…. it really is! Today I cannot win at parenting. I feel like its all out of my control. That makes me feel shit.

I really am not one for making out my life is perfect. It is far from being doused in the smell of roses!! I generally am a happy person, very laid back and quite care free. But today I do care, today I am not feeling laid back…. today feels like a huge pus filled zit on the arse of parenting!

 

My poor baby boy is very unsettled indeed with his colic and reflux issues and no amount of Mummy love or cuddles is settling or comforting him. All I want to do is help him and take his pain away but today is not letting that happen. I long for the day that he grows out of this. It is not an inconvenience at all…. I just want him to not suffer. I just want to not witness him bright red in the face screaming the house down and not being able to help him. I hate it! I hate Colic and Reflux!

 

My older 2 kids seem to have found a whole load of hate for each other. They have always been so close! It breaks my heart. It is such petty crap they argue over too. They literally cannot be in the same room as each other for longer than 2 minutes before all hell breaks loose! I hate it!! What has happened to their relationship?! I cannot win at that either. I do not take sides, I tell them both they are as bad as each other which they are and I get accused of taking sides. I get accused of like the other more than them. I am wrong because I’m not backing either of them. If they had valid arguments then I would but “Mum…. he/she breathed in my direction” is not valid. It’s ridiculous. I am sick of listening to it and I just want them to get along. Having to tell 2 of my children that if they can’t stand each other then don’t communicate or go near each other is AWFUL. Its awful because I have seen these two be so close, have so much fun, laugh together. Where did it all go so wrong? It’s daily! I hate it!!

 

So today is pants quite frankly! I feel like a rubbish mother because I can’t control these crappy things that are going on! How do I make things better? How do I get them to like each other again?

 

Bring on tomorrow!! Tomorrow is a new day!

 

 

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The First 3 Months

My word…. it goes so quickly doesn’t it!!? These first 3 months have flown by!

Fraser hasn’t had the easiest of starts but has still been an absolute dream. He was sleeping 4-5 hours a night from a week old. I, as most parents really love my sleep so have cherished this enormously! We have really been blessed in that respect as our older two children were also very good with their sleep!

 

Now this time around I’ve come across and am struggling with a couple of things I’ve not experienced before!! Reflux and Colic!! Wow! Like babies don’t create enough extra washing without throwing up over 5 different outfits a day! Haha!

It started when Fraser was about 2 weeks old. The vomit!! The sheer amount of baby vomit! HE was pretty much throwing up after every feed! Time to see a doc! The doctor advised us that from the symptoms we had described, Fraser has reflux! Well this was a new one to us! He prescribed Infant Gaviscon which was to be put into every feed. We saw the effects almost immediately, which was great. This lasted 3 whole days then the vomit returned! Back to the docs we went. This time we were advised that it could be an intolerance to the formula so we were prescribed a cows milk free formula. Wow that stuff was gross! It had the consistency and smell of a very thick cheese sauce! *gag* ….. it made absolutely no difference whatsoever and we tried it for the 2 weeks that we were told to so we switched back to his original formula. After a little while the vomiting subsided by itself. We were so relieved. Well…. for a while, until the colic kicked in! Another new thing for us!

 

 

At about 4 weeks old, one particular evening Fraser was VERY upset. He had been fed and changed, I had tried to burp him, nothing. I tried my hardest to comfort him, trying all sorts of positions holding him, walking around with him, over my legs, on my shoulder, in the pram… nope nothing worked, he was screaming the place down like I had never heard before. That kind of scream where their little faces go bright red and you are willing them to take a breath. It was awful and I felt bloody useless. I called 111 for advice because I had tried everything and I just did not know what else to do. They asked me a series of questions and by this point Fraser had been screaming or almost 2 hours solid. They said they were sending an ambulance, because he was so little they didn’t want to take any risks. PANIC MODE!!! I am crap at situations like this and stated crying on the phone, that then made my daughter cry, she’s 14 and was a real rock to me that night. Hubby was at work. The paramedics turned up and checked him over and within 5 minutes of them being there he stopped crying! How typical is that!?? They still wanted him to go to hospital to get checked over. All his stats seemed ok so that was something. Mum in Law came over to sit with the older two and I went with Fraser in the ambulance. Got to children A&E and the nurses done all the checks again, asked me a few questions, weighed him…. they couldn’t find a thing wrong with him! I felt like such an idiot!! They kept reassuring me that I had done the right thing. Just glad he was ok!

We have had so much fun and laughter with this little boy! He’s generally a very happy chappy! His 1st smile made me melt and his 1st proper laugh (a real belly chuckle!) actually made me cry! He’s so funny!

 

We still have the colic and reflux issues but we are battling through, the docs don’t appear to be listening but I’ve made the choice to change his milk to a comfort milk. There does seem to be less vomit but it hasn’t cleared completely. Its good to know that colic and reflux are both things he will eventually grow out of.

 

 

Fraser is also suffering from a touch of Plagiocephaly – Flat Head Syndrome. Another new thing to us!! We are following advise to correct it and it is slowly improving. Resting his head to the opposite side that is affected, holding him more, lots of tummy time, he absolutely loves sitting up and seeing whats going on around him at the moment so we’ve bought him a Fisher Price sit-me-up which he likes to sit in but not for too long. Hopefully it will continue to improve and no further action will be needed. In his cot we also use a BabyMoov Cosy Dream, its like a padded cushion/mat that he sleeps on thats moulded around the head and that helps prevent flat head syndrome too.

 

This boy loves his milk! He is on 8oz bottles 4 times a day… generally 9am – 1pm – 5pm – then 9pm then bath and bed! He sleeps right through now… 10 hours a night!! Very very blessed! I think he will be great by the time is comes to weaning. I’m not sure he will last until the full 6 months and I do really want to hold it off for as long as I possibly can. His older brother was a milk and food lover and used to scream when either had finished as he was enjoying it so much! LOL! I can see Fraser being the same! He already is with his milk!

Unlike his older siblings he really loves his baths! He loves to kick about in the water and loves being washed with lots of bubbles! Baby friendly bubbles of course! The older two used to scream the place down at bath time so this is a refreshing change!

 

So Fraser was 3 months old on the 28th July. He is smiling, laughing, holding toys for a short amount of time, he has discovered his hands, he has almost fully rolled from his back onto his front just one arm got stuck underneath him, he hasn’t managed the other way though just yet. He is vocal and starting to “shout” ¬†especially when excited! He loves to watch the colours on the TV, he adores music!!

Despite all the throwing up he is gaining weight well. As of today he weighs 18lbs exactly! He is going to be a bruiser!!

 

Fraser is going to be such a character I can tell! His 1st 3 months have been great even if a little bit stressful. I can’t wait to see what the next 3 bring!!